May 30 and May 31

HAPPY KAAMATAN PEOPLE.
GET DRUNK...
AND
GET WASTED...
HAHAHAHAHA~

Uploading some pictures from I GOT TALENT.

Pictures on our 1st audition.
from left to right:
me,marlleyney,apple,suziey and shasha.

Group photo after finish audition. I was sick that time.

1st heat of I Got Talent.
Location: KTV waiting room.
from left to right:
me,suziey,shasha and marlleyney.

16 finalist that made it to the 2nd heat.

And again,us.

when ur gone...*fuck u*

Sunday always been so sunny...hot...bored..and lonesome..obviously talking abt being single eyh?haha..because if im not single..i wont be here posting abt how lonely i am and how broken my heart is rite now plus some yada yada randomness..

*sigh*..wondering whats the reason of the sigh???hmm...just missing someone who doesnt really know abt how i feel..ya ya ya..pathethic kan..vale bgus ko mampus.

Blarh!

So, ive been joing this competition which requires me to sing...I GOT TALENT..At first, i never thought that singing competition is gonna be this hard..i mean..when i was a little kid, singing competition just ginna held for one night..but nowdays..i mean..for I GOT TALENT.. there will be elimination as well as genre for the weeks..waaa.this is tough man...

Plus..now im having a very bad cough..aaahh shitttt...its really difficult for me to sing..to make it more worst..im singing WHEN UR GONE by Avril Lavigne for Rock/Alternative night..Grrrr...i dont like the song actually..its really hard for me to sing it with emotion because the thing is...hmm..teda la...

wish me luck.

So called Yum Cha talks.

"are you stupid?'"
"Nope"
"Then why did u say u shy?because shy is equal to stupid..if u keep on feeling shy, u cant go anywhere."
"okay..u know..i get that..i mean..i am shy..but not shy because of the talent that i have but i shy because of the physical features that i have."
"alaaa..cmon la..okay..lets just put it this way..take Adibah Noor for example..i mean shes a real big women is it?"
"ya..??"
"and who is she now?what is she becoming now?people respect her..not because of the physical features that she got but the talent that she has. See, thats what i want u to be clear with..pls la..dont be shy..its just a singing competitio.."
"okayla..i think i got ur point here..the thing is im just lake of confidence."
"Right..i know.i can see that..u just be yourself and u'll be fine..have fun and enjoyed.Dulu kan, i used to be an athlete ba..i know im not very the laju la in terms of running..but at least i do trust the talent that i have and even if im lost..i still satisfied because ive tried and i did my best to win."
"Yala..thanx man..i'll take that as an advise.."
"No big deal bha..we are your friends..of course we will support you..come let me give u a hug just to boost your spirit"
"awww..thanks man..i really appreciate that"

I'm having this conversation with Roy aka Claire's boyfriend while having a drinkinf session at Eclips just now.Yup just now..FYI, i just came home and i think i wanna write what ive just been ceramah.

So, ive entered myself to this one competition called I GOT TALENT which will be held at Djunction Pub. To be honest with you, this is my very first time to join a singing competition..cut the part where im being force by my secondary school's teacher who forced me to sang the Gelang si paku Gelang song.

Frankly, im not feeling well..ive got a sore throat and cough and it really affect my singing and that why im worried. Whoaaaa...but whatever it is..ive already gotten many supports and positive talk from my friends just now and i think i wanna do my best, enjoy, be myself and dont let them down. Because i believe on the talent i have..i can sing..Yes i can sing..

Thanx for the advise that ya'll had been given me..i really appreciate it..bah..minum2..*tipsy*


"No big deal ba..we are your friends, we support you..

Alhamdulillah..syukur..

Mungkin Tuhan sengaja mahu kita berjumpa dengan orang yang salah sebelum menemui orang yang betul supaya apabila ktia akhirnya bertemu dengan insan yang betul, kita akan tahu bagaimana untuk bersyukur dengan nikmat pemberian dan hikmah di sebalik pemberian tersebut. Apabila salah satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup, yang lain akan terbuka tetapi lazimnya kita akan memandang pintu yang telah tertutup itu terlalu lama hinggakan kita tidak nampak pintu yang sudah dibukakan untuk kita.

Kawan yang paling baik adalah seseorang yang anda bileh duduk di dalam buaian dan berbuai besama tanpa berjata apa-apa pun dan kemudian berjalan pulang dengan perasaan bahawa itu lah perbualan paling hebat pernah anda alami. Memang benar yang kita tidak akan tahu apa yang telah kita punyai sehinggalah kita kehilangannya dan juga benar bahawa kita tidak tahu apa yang kita rindukan sehinggalah "ia" datang.

Memberi seseorang seluruh cinta anda bukanlah satu kepastian yang mereka akan mencintai anda kembali. Jangan harapkan cinta sebagai balasan. Nantikan sahaja ia untuk mekar di dalam hati anda. Ia cuma mengambil masa seminit untuk jatuh hati pada seseorang, satu jam untuk menyukai seseorang, satu hari untuk mencintai seseorang, tetapi ia mengambil masa sepanjang hidup untuk melupakan seseorang.

"They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, but then an entire life to forget them."

Jangan pandang kepada kecantikan kerana boleh jadi ianya palsu. Jangan kejar kemewahan kerana ianya akan susut. Carilah seseorang yang membuatkan anda tersenyum kerana ia cuma memerlukan sekuntum senyuman untuk mencerahkan hari yang suram. Carilah sesuatu yang membuatkan hati anda tersenyum. Akan tiba satu ketika di dalam kehidupan apabila anda teramatkan rindukan seseorang sehingga anda ingin menggapainya dari mimpi anda dan memeluknya dengan sebenar.

Mimpilah apa yang ingin anda mimpikan, pergilah ke mana-mana yang ingin anda tujui dan jadilah apa yang anda inginkan kerana anda hanya memiliki satu kehidupan dan satu peluang untuk melakukan semua perkara yang ingin anda lakukan. Semoga anda memiliki kebahagiaan yang cukup untuk membuatkan diri anda menarik, percubaan yang cukup untuk membuatkan anda kuat, kesedihan yang cukup untuk memastikan anda adalah seorang insan dan harapan yang cukup untuk membuatkan anda bahagia. Selalu bayangkan diri anda di dalam kasut seseorang. Jika anda rasa ianya menyakitkan anda, fikirlah ia mungkin menyakitkan orang lain juga. Kebahagiaan seseorang manusia tidak semestinya dalam memiliki segala yang terbaik. Mereka hanya membuat yang terbaik dalam hampir apa saja yang datang di dalam perjalanan hidup mereka.

Kebahagiaan terletak kepada mereka yang menangis, mereka yang terluka, mereka yang telah mencari dan mereka yang telah mencuba. Hanya mereka yang boleh menghargai kepentingan manusia yang telah menyentuh hidup mereka. Cinta bermula dengan senyuman, mekar dengan ciuman dan berakhir dengan tangisan. Masa depan yang cerah sentiasa berteraskan kehidupan yang lalu yang telah dilupakan. Anda tidak boleh meneruskan kehidupan dengan sempurna sehingga anda melupakan kegagalan dan kekecewaan masa silam.

Semasa anda dilahirkan, anda menangis dan orang di sekeliling anda tersenyum. Teruskanlah hidup anda supaya apabila anda mati nanti, andalah yang akan tersenyum dan orang sekeliling anda pula yang akan menangis…

Randomly made by me.

Sudah Gila~~~

I was humming that line over and over again..Haizzzz...Theres so much emotions in me but when i started staring this monitor..my brain goes...ZzZzZz...????...*****...

And that is why i called this entry as Randomly made by me..I have no idea how to specifies my post..and it goes randommmmm...*mentioned*

I miss someone..
Im freakin stressed with Legal..
Im nervous about interview..
I feel lonely as hell..
I feel useless..
i just wanna go away..
*deep sigh*

I dunnno wat is wrong with me..feel empty and i dont wanna think about it..fuck it.

Dont mess with my family u ass.

Last night, when i was about to go to sleep, i heard a hard and loud knocks on my door..Reluctantly..i checked and theres mum..asking me to get ready..it takes me minutes to figure out what she said..it happen to be that my Uncle has been brutally beaten by several chinese road bullies..

As i arrived, my uncle was totally exhausted, blood was all over his face..its kinda look like an awful injury..At that moment, me with my anger inside my heart..continuously cursing those whoever beaten him. To start with, he was on his way home..Frankly, he was driving Faye's lowered Satria and of course its kinda slow to passed the bonggols. And wtf is that, the chineses boys cant stand the slow motion of my uncles car and decided to cucuk and honk him from the back..mai lin oo??cant u just brought ur heavy cocks and over-tacked?fuck ass damn chinese man!

Feelin annoyed, my uncles stop by the roadside and get out from the car to asked what is the chineses problems actually, and without warning, one of the chinese dick face took a hard metal and beat my uncle and after finised, they ran away..what the fuck is that?trying to hit a way an adult..why dont he just go one by one without any weapon..that will sound more like a hero..kimak la!

After taking some information from my uncle, me and my cuzzy Pearl went to the security centre to check the entrance cctv. Apparantly, the guys drove a Kelisa SAA7010C just at the back of my uncles car. After we detect the car, we sent 2 security to see where did they parked and their house number and soon after that, we called the police.The police is another story..

After last night's incident, i finally understand why do people hate cops so much..that is because most of the cops are irresponsible..so this is how it goes between my conversation with the asshole cops pukima anjing sial anak ko isap butu babi!

"Sepa yang kena pukul"-Fucked up cops.
"uncle sya"-lovely me.
"sepa yang pukul?"-Fucked up cops.
"erm..ada budak2 cina td p pukul dia.sbb dia lmbat bawa keta ja..then dorg x sabar..dorg p pukul uncle sy pula pkai besi..pas tu dorg chow."-lovely me.
"di mana mangsa skg?"-fucked up cops.
"ada d rumah."-lovely me.
"terukkah?napa x bawa p hospital?''-fucked up cops.
"alaa..nda tau klu dia dpt jalan ka nda..sbb dia lemah tul skg tu..nda jua teruk berabis la..tp totally lemah..bedarah2 td banyak."-pissed me but still maintain lovely.
"ba..klu dia nda buli jalan, kamu angkat la?!"fucked up cops.
"uih..UNCLE SAYA, BADAN DIA DUA KALI GANDA LAGI BESAR DARI BADAN TUAN."-pissed me and dont care if i look totally crap.
"oo..jadi badan sy keci la ne?"*laughing*-fucked up cops getting ready to get fuck by stray dogs.
"uina..keci pula ne.."my cuzzy Pearl.
"nda buli ka kmu p tgk sana kejap?''-pissed me trying to have a slow talk.
"buli tu buli..tp klu kmi p sana..APA JUGA YANG KAMI BLEH BUAT?"-Fucked up cops enjoying getting a BJ by his son.

owh my god..what the fuck..u asking us what u shud do?wheres ur brain man?Okay..i understand if it takes some procedure to log a police report..but that is not an excuse of not taking ur responsibility. U are the cops, u know better. At least just take a look at my uncle's condition and make a simple report or take some information, as well as calling the headoffice so that they aware of it.Thats all!

Damn..i am so damn pissed with the cops..so was Pearl..both of us are really surprised with their response. Even the security guard is much better.

So, my aunty bring my uncle to the hospital and then went to the police station to log a report. Found out that the guy's car has been detected by the JPJ and they will do some tangkapan in no time.Good!

All my family are so shocked to hear about this because all of us never thought that my uncle will got beaten. And let me remind u that my family will not be quiet until justice is done. Dont mess with my family because if u hurt one of us, u are messing with all of us. What u have done, u gonna pay for it!u got that! And to the bastard police named Lokhman..u are so dead. My aunty has make a complain about you and i hope u enjoy ur dog's dick in ur mouth.Ok!

Disclaimer: i dont care if im getting jail for trashing the cops. Cops are bastard anyway..Well some of them..whatever it is..the cops last night..was a total asshole.

Gravity.

Did i gAze around your thoughts sumtimes?
Because i can feel it..
or maybe im just having sort of wishful thinking..
Why do it feels like you?
the further i go..the closer ur precense feels like..
Something always brings me back to you...
Kill me now, Please.

RANDOM and nothing is right.

I was browsing thru my 'kodak moments' just now..Cant believe i have taken a lots of pictures and each of them leaves memories actually...*deep sigh* 3 papers down..2 more papers to go..I just finished my Macro paper today and all i can say is..'Hopefully'..The question is easy but my brain refuse to storm..

Cant really write down my thoughts at the moment bcoz seems like all my ideas likely to be scattered around and i just dunno where to begin..Feelin kinda tired of thinking but i know i cant stop myself from thinking actually..im such a paranoia..

Well..yada yada..

Really lazy to blog. Just thought of passing by..at least i never forget..

Till then..
remember..always..