Im giving you the best of me, because you deserve no less.

Just when i thought i know you better than anybody else. I guess i was dead wrong.
Its 10 minutes to sunrise and I still can't sleep
One word,
FUCK.

C.L.O.S.U.R.E

*deep sigh*

Though i realize you are with someone else, i wish we are together instead..only in whisper that i dare to say it to the whole world..For any louder than that, i am just afraid that you would banished it away..

Someone once told me that in order to get over it and move on, we need to put the past behind us. A past that has no closure is a different kind of past. One would not understand it if one has not gone through it. With all due respect, everybody needs closure. There are things in my life that need so many closure that i never dare to get the privilege of doing so. Maybe Im afraid of the feeling of regrets that will or will not occur ever since I made the closure. I am living my life hanging..

Time passes by and part of me still saving the very best of myself for you. Im not sure of what im waiting for, or what am i hoping for..And I don't know if it worthwhile..I just can't stop L***** you. At times I feel like such a loser for keeping this feeling though its obvious that you are way too far away from me now..I just cant..

If u happen to read this, I just want that closure..
That closure..

What am i to you?

Ignorance is ur new bestfren.

Do i look happy?Because i am NOT but peoples keep on thinking so.

Paramore-Ignorance.

If i'm a bad person, u don't like me
well i'll guess i make my own way
It a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite u anymore.

where is your gavel?ur jury?
WHat's my offense this time?
you're not a judge but if u gonna judge me
well, sentence me to another life.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
i dont wanna feel your pain
when u swear its all my faults
cause u know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh no, we're not the same.

Yeah, ive got friends who stuck together
we wrote our name in blood
But i guess you cant accet that the change is good
its good, its good.

well, u treat me just like another stranger
well, its nice to meet u sir,
I guess i'll go, i best be on my way out.

Ignorance is your new bestfriend
Ignorance is your new bestfriend.

This is the best thing that coul've happen
Any longer, and I woudn't have made it
It's not a war, No, its not a rapture
Im just a person, but you cant take it.

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They wont get you anywhere
Im not the same kid from your memory
well, now I can fend for myself.

sweet dream?or a beautiful nightmare?

I cant sleep. Actually im scared to sleep. Im afraid of a bad dreams. Just now while i was editing busy editing pictures, a friend of mine suddenly pop-up-chat me thru Facebook saying that she dreamt about me last nite..Its a bad one.

According to her, my family facing a big heavy problem.We lost everything..and she means EVERYTHING.

It was just a dream but i cant help myself from thinking about it..because our family is having financial problems and we are slowly losing things..for instance, my cAr.

*sigh*

Somebody..someone..pls provide me some positive thoughts or words.
....

I really2 need it.

Thank You.

Something good and new.

So, i was extremely busy for the past three days..Been helping my lecturer to prepare her wedding, which turns out to be perfectly done..well, of course with the help of me n Nana..i mean..most of the preparation is done by us..from decorating the pelamin, the table set, the bar, the food placement, the bride's wedding gown, being their driver, ...EVERYTHING. And we are uber tired.

Weird?It is. Kinda sad because their family weren't even there to help out..yaaa..family issues which i dont want to state here. Enough said. But overall, im glad everything turns out really2 well..Despite the lack of sleep, super massive hunger, tired, plus the weather is seriously being a bitch,yada yada yada...In the end, feels good it was perfectly done..pays-off man..I would cherish this experience in my life..And..ya..To prepare a wedding is really2 hard..u need at least a year to have a perfect event of ur biggest day in ur life...

Picas?
yeap..coming rite up.

DAY 1

just arrive at the SESB hall, nobody's around, hence..PICTURE TIME!!

Nana testing her artistic side..GOTCHA!
im just plain crazy n dumb..dun mind the ugly sandals btw..
Model of the day.
Model x jadi.
setting up the pelamin

DAY 2

Taking the car to be decorated.

till then, we just take a look inside the bridal shops.. aah~gownsssss...~So boring the face
Nana fancy this gown.
I like this pattern.(i lied)

The car is now ready..
gagaga.

DAY 3

Awal pagi suda p ambi bunga..erggh..jerawat!

nana.
at Berjaya Palace Hotel..few hours b4 the reception.
waiting to checked in.
Camwhoring while waiting for the brides to get ready.
the event finally started
them

AND
more pictures of us.

i just L.O.V.E this photos so much.

that was that..enough for today. I blog again tomorrow. Happy dawn everyone. Im off to sleep now, i think im getting sick again.*sigh*

Human-Toy?

An 11-year-old Bulgarian girl gave birth to a baby girl on the day she got married to her teenage boyfriend.
She was still wearing her flowing white dress and tiara when she arrived at the hospital and gave birth to 2.49kg Violeta last week.

After spending the night with her newborn, Kordeza changed back into her wedding dress to finish the ceremony.

“I used to play with my toys but now she is my new toy. She is so beautiful, I love her. Violeta is the child and I must grow up. I am not going back to school – I am a mother now,” Kordeza said.
Her husband is 19-year-old Jeliazko Dimitrov.

What the fuck is going on nowdays?

(@^@)

Sometimes, i just don't have a good reason for ALL the STUPID things i did.

What's the odd?

Frankly speaking..im just not in the mood of sentence-ing..Im just wayyy to exhausted of constructing my words..So, just for a lil q-kie updates..im just goin to summarize about what ive been up to n this is how it goes..

- Just had my interview for SPA thingy today..FYI, I have to be there from 7am-2pm..wtf rite? n of course..with empty stomach.

- My left eye hurt...:( ...no no its not Red Eye..I think it has sumthing to do with infection as i remember the other day..i was sleeping without removing my make up..Mascara it is..My left eye is currently watery, and reddish in colour.

- My statistic paper is killing me..i just dont wanna talk about it..well..more.i just don't wanna talk more about it.

- I am still in sick- mode..I have a very bad headache almost EVERY night..its like migrain but not really..*sigh*..

- So, i finally giving up my car..so u know how i feel.

- Im quitting my part time job soon..the payout sucks..big-time.

- Sometimes i just feel like slapping u hard in the face.

- i feel bloated all the time for this past few days..i probably goin to have my period soon..*checkin on calendar*

- Period means PMS tagged along..I just hate being so emotionally unstable..I cant made my mind. Besa laa...''susa ba mo jadi ppuan ne..'' org bilang la..

- I think guys just keep on getting better in being a 'mat bunga' eyh??just sad dou, we girls..never falls for it easily. Guys are so stupid.

- I think love DOESNT make the world go round..It actually make the ride WORTHWHILE .

- Welcome to the 'single and adult-hood life' to me...weeeeee~

- am trying to look for a better job with better income.i need to buy a car. I just cant live without a car..

-Ive been cutting down on cigarettes these days and it makes me feel 2kg heavier..

- i need to consume more water.

- i need to start on my diet..*ya right*

- i am in a relationship..*i lied*

- I have a very kind heart..*so true*

So, this is what ive been up to lately..ignore the last three..im just making that up.

im off now, will blogg more in the future..and..i think maggie ayam with eggs is so delightful to have rite now aite?

ergghhh...makaaaannnn ja ko vale,,nte ko jd Enot bru ko tau!

p/s: I would like to post up some pictures..but i just dont have the time..maybe later k pipols..

Chill-out?

Im having trouble-sleeping and feels like i wanna have a baby on my own...Bodoh?

Im planning to sleep early tonite but yadayada..situation goes rather ironic all the times...i dont feel sleepy at all..padahal...punya la super massive penat to the max...

I think i'll be transport-less in no time. Someone eventually interested in buying my Red Kancil...aduiii..mere words cant explain how much i feel sad of letting HER go..:(

In the mean time...this is a note to all guys..

guys...treat ur girl with the love of ur heart..Even when she make so many mistakes, but still..woman loves like there's no tomorrow..a woman in love has the ability to boost urself up when ur feeling down..Even when u yelled, still, its the gf who bares it all.

So, called up ur gf now, and tell her how much u love her. When is the last time u did something sweet to ur gf????

*sigh*

Just hoping somebody will treat me that way..iTs been such a long time..

oh crap..Im just talking rubbish..don't bother me.

im off to sleep now..hopefully i'll get some.

Goodnight peeps..see ya around.

*i'll be sleeping with few RnB soul music*

Whatsoever..

Im going to stay awake tonight as i need to cover all 12 chapters of Marketing..Yeaaa man..My paper is on this coming 4th..so..you know why..

Random..random...random...

This is me. Camwhoring before starting on my revision.

That's all folks..
Over and out.

P/s: I purposely minimize the size of these pictures.

woooooooooooooooot!~

Long long time ago..~iklan jap..sudden tringat lagu Chris Daughtry..kuikuikui...

My point is..its been such a long time since i last get a internet-gateway thru CC..if ya'll dun understand what CC means..it stands for Cyber Cafe..hohohoho..

*dgr org bekurapak dlm fon d sebelah*

Haizzzzzz..

Sendiri je ne skg..smua mutual friends ada agenda masing2..hm..gini la ba ne klu single..hidup x teratur kunun...wakakakak..if u noticed..i like to mentioned mutual friends instead of friend or best friend or member..or hommies..or what-so-fuck u wanna called it..named it..

why?

good question.

But i dun wanna answer dat. Go figure. Its a homework.

trus blank x tau apa mo tulis..sad ba..tau ka..sad...

:(