" dont care-->kata2 dr seorang yg gmuk+pengumpat tegar+suka sibuk hal org+hal org,dia lebih2..miahahaha...wei, mind ur own business la...aku kurus, ko gemuk..TRY u??euww...teda masa lyn pengumpat2 tegar ni..merbahaya..bkn lawa pun..khakkk, puii(ludah).....last ni aku post bnda psl pngumpat..boring..ignorant"
"vera, ko tau ka sepa yg ckp ni??kwn ko..v**e..gemuk, mcm babs, mulut pnuh taik..gemuk bau lemak, pmpuan isap rokok..ala, clasmte ko dlu 1time dip"
"apit, sepa lg...si v**e la..pakindat puny pmpuan..ko ambk la lemak dia...buat LAKSA PENANG pun bole..hahaha.."
p/s: These statements are made for me. Well said words from a fucker.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
say what?
yea...i really miss my blog..but the thing is i have to put on some clothes to my naked body n rush to the church for confession like NOW!
so yea...see ya later folks.
so yea...see ya later folks.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Take a break..have a kit-kat!~
I was...supposed to..start..on my revision..
I had a good talk with Chester just now..nothing much and nothing specific..just recalling those 'been there, done that' moment..and just by talking about it..we both realize how much we've changed..to be better la..
Ever since I was a kid, I always been a very troublesome child. I never been the favorite niece among my aunts and uncles..and most definitely never the favorites of my grandparents..I always thinks that I am different from my cousins because i never get the same treatment as they get..Everything I did is wrong..Up to a point that I thought i was adopted because they were really well behaved..unlike my rebellious attitude..I always being compared to my other cousins because they never yelled at their mother..and I did.
As i grow up..I was exposed to so many negative surroundings..i grow up in a quarters where most of the youths involved with gangs, drugs, alcohols, sex and so on..My friends were usually much older than me..3-6 years older than me and thats the reason why that time..I am more matured compare to other kids my age..I remember I always being brought to a small abandoned house by my grown up friends and I just sat there, watching them do drugs, get high and get intimate with their partners..and they are the reason how i met my first boyfriend.
Well..I had my first crush when I was 10 but I had my real first boyfriend when I was 12. When I recalled back the reason for me and him being together, I felt so dumb I slapped myself hard...FYI: He is 5 years older than me and he's a Blackmetal..and surprised surprised..I had my first kiss with him. I know..wtf right? Call me stupid, a bitch or whatsoever..that really happened. I was so crazy in love I spoiled my performance at school..Its obvious that he only in it for fun..helloooooo...what does a 17yr old guy sees in a 12yr old girl???????
I was lucky enough my parents know about this and they broke the relationship..what if my parents never knew about this and I lost my virginity and get pregnant???owh-my~ As soon as my parents knew about this, I was sent to my Aun't place so that we never get the chance to see each other. I remember being so angry with my mother for setting us apart..I live a miserable life because I was not used to live with other people even my relatives..I felt awkward by just sitting with them while having dinner. Ever since that, I never met him anymore and i became a loner and my relationship with my mother wrecked. Looking back I guess being a loner is the reason why I pass with flying colors in my UPSR.
But, the story above is just the starting point of my teenage life. When I entered high school, aahhhhhh...I get even worse. Let see...I started smoking, having rivals with bitches at school, fighting with boys, runaway from home..when I was 13. I had my first girl fights from other school when I was 14..(It was a police-case fyi), I skipped school, involved in underground scenes, and drank alcohol when I was 15. Yeap, I was very rebellious. I don't have a good relationship with my parents. Only when I was 16 and moved to SM Teknik, my behavior getting better, my record getting better, my relationship with my parents getting better, my study getting better..all because I met my second boyfriend. Hmmmm...I consider him as my high school sweetheart..He is nice..he always brought me breakfast from home and sent it to my class in the morning..long story short, He was once, my soulmate.
Moving on..i get into university life. Who would have known right? Jajal2 pun buli msuk U...hahahaha. During my Diploma years..I never really had those damn troubles like my high school years..just some social activities like clubbing, late-night hangouts and love-drama..unhealthy relationships and yada yada yada..And my social life is the reason for my break-up with my second boyfriend..There goes our 4 years relationship, vanished. I think during these times I started to appreciate life more. Especially when I nearly lost my dad, my whole life turns up side down and I began to cherish every moment, good or bad..that happens in my life..until now, I realize that, I was once a troublesome and rebellious girl because nobody taught me about life. All the life-lessons i get is from the bad things that i done..not from anybody's advice, not from my parent's lecture..because obviously, i never listened to my parents at all(dulu). All and all, I live, and I learnt. Truth to be told, Im glad that i get exposed to negativity at such a young age, because, by the time i grow up and girls my age started to involved in 'those', I am so over it already.
To be honest with all of you, I don't even know for what purpose this post serve for. I guess I'm just measuring the life-changing experience I had. Despite the dark past that I have, I am grateful because, I never get involved in drugs, I didn't lose my virginity and get pregnant by my 1st stupid ex-boyfriend and most importantly, I did not lose my dad.
Im 22 years old now and the things that happened in my life never failed to make me realize my standpoint. Its amazing to see that I learnt, what I never been taught.
I had a good talk with Chester just now..nothing much and nothing specific..just recalling those 'been there, done that' moment..and just by talking about it..we both realize how much we've changed..to be better la..
Ever since I was a kid, I always been a very troublesome child. I never been the favorite niece among my aunts and uncles..and most definitely never the favorites of my grandparents..I always thinks that I am different from my cousins because i never get the same treatment as they get..Everything I did is wrong..Up to a point that I thought i was adopted because they were really well behaved..unlike my rebellious attitude..I always being compared to my other cousins because they never yelled at their mother..and I did.
As i grow up..I was exposed to so many negative surroundings..i grow up in a quarters where most of the youths involved with gangs, drugs, alcohols, sex and so on..My friends were usually much older than me..3-6 years older than me and thats the reason why that time..I am more matured compare to other kids my age..I remember I always being brought to a small abandoned house by my grown up friends and I just sat there, watching them do drugs, get high and get intimate with their partners..and they are the reason how i met my first boyfriend.
Well..I had my first crush when I was 10 but I had my real first boyfriend when I was 12. When I recalled back the reason for me and him being together, I felt so dumb I slapped myself hard...FYI: He is 5 years older than me and he's a Blackmetal..and surprised surprised..I had my first kiss with him. I know..wtf right? Call me stupid, a bitch or whatsoever..that really happened. I was so crazy in love I spoiled my performance at school..Its obvious that he only in it for fun..helloooooo...what does a 17yr old guy sees in a 12yr old girl???????
I was lucky enough my parents know about this and they broke the relationship..what if my parents never knew about this and I lost my virginity and get pregnant???owh-my~ As soon as my parents knew about this, I was sent to my Aun't place so that we never get the chance to see each other. I remember being so angry with my mother for setting us apart..I live a miserable life because I was not used to live with other people even my relatives..I felt awkward by just sitting with them while having dinner. Ever since that, I never met him anymore and i became a loner and my relationship with my mother wrecked. Looking back I guess being a loner is the reason why I pass with flying colors in my UPSR.
But, the story above is just the starting point of my teenage life. When I entered high school, aahhhhhh...I get even worse. Let see...I started smoking, having rivals with bitches at school, fighting with boys, runaway from home..when I was 13. I had my first girl fights from other school when I was 14..(It was a police-case fyi), I skipped school, involved in underground scenes, and drank alcohol when I was 15. Yeap, I was very rebellious. I don't have a good relationship with my parents. Only when I was 16 and moved to SM Teknik, my behavior getting better, my record getting better, my relationship with my parents getting better, my study getting better..all because I met my second boyfriend. Hmmmm...I consider him as my high school sweetheart..He is nice..he always brought me breakfast from home and sent it to my class in the morning..long story short, He was once, my soulmate.
Moving on..i get into university life. Who would have known right? Jajal2 pun buli msuk U...hahahaha. During my Diploma years..I never really had those damn troubles like my high school years..just some social activities like clubbing, late-night hangouts and love-drama..unhealthy relationships and yada yada yada..And my social life is the reason for my break-up with my second boyfriend..There goes our 4 years relationship, vanished. I think during these times I started to appreciate life more. Especially when I nearly lost my dad, my whole life turns up side down and I began to cherish every moment, good or bad..that happens in my life..until now, I realize that, I was once a troublesome and rebellious girl because nobody taught me about life. All the life-lessons i get is from the bad things that i done..not from anybody's advice, not from my parent's lecture..because obviously, i never listened to my parents at all(dulu). All and all, I live, and I learnt. Truth to be told, Im glad that i get exposed to negativity at such a young age, because, by the time i grow up and girls my age started to involved in 'those', I am so over it already.
Im 22 years old now and the things that happened in my life never failed to make me realize my standpoint. Its amazing to see that I learnt, what I never been taught.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
150
So,
Haven't been seeing me around eyh? Well, what to do la i was quite..not quite but extremely busy i don't even have time for lovey-dovey stuffs..my chillax routines..my so-called laguan time and yada yada yada..Ahh..here we go again, i was like 20mins stuck in front of the screen thinking about what to type padahal I was so enthusiastic to blog half an hour ago..Whatever la.
It has finally reached the end of the semester and time goes by damn fast im tellin ya. There are few here-and-there things that I don't even notice their progress and blarh. But one thing for sure, I am so not ready for my final exam. I feel like all this while was a total Rocket-fly...I am lost..and..unfortunately not found. But hell with it, a war is not over until I struggles to it. So yea, go figure.
As usual, im having problems in constructing my words so there goes my Whats-Happening?!.
1. This thing called money seriously have some issues with me. I don't know why but they keep on avoiding me.
2. Long hair, short, medium, curl. Nope, Long hair it is.
3. All those people who used to claim that I have a cold-heart really deserves a slap in the face. In some instances, I do love relationship. Hell yeah relationshit is hard but thats just the way it supposed to be right?
4. I think im having PMS soon and i need to have a comfortable distance from everybody..people, just stay 5 feet away from me.
5. I love my dad more than anything in this world.
6.Why do some wives sometimes cheat?
7. I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. PLEASE HURRY HOME.
8. Im considering a part-time job its just that i don't have car to move. Sometimes i wonder why I loss my car and don't get any dollars from it?
9. My lappy went kaput again. This is disaster-shit.
10. I don't think Ive change, I guess i just found the real me?
11. Enough ka if I just list down 10 updates..(someway somehow im stil typing).
12. Well, its morning now, this post was actually on PAUSE for 6hours.
13. I guess i have to learn how to save from now on because I noticed I don't possess anything in my life. Yet.
14. I smoked. Again. It's a sin, and Im not proud of it.
15. I missed my bestfriend Nurul. I can't wait for December.
16. You make me love you..:-)
Enough is enough. So that was all. I don't wanna mentioned anything about school because it stresses me out. I am uber tired. I need a vacay somehwere la wth..
P/s: I think this post is totally NOT gonna make myself look better. Told you I'm on PMS.
Haven't been seeing me around eyh? Well, what to do la i was quite..not quite but extremely busy i don't even have time for lovey-dovey stuffs..my chillax routines..my so-called laguan time and yada yada yada..Ahh..here we go again, i was like 20mins stuck in front of the screen thinking about what to type padahal I was so enthusiastic to blog half an hour ago..Whatever la.
It has finally reached the end of the semester and time goes by damn fast im tellin ya. There are few here-and-there things that I don't even notice their progress and blarh. But one thing for sure, I am so not ready for my final exam. I feel like all this while was a total Rocket-fly...I am lost..and..unfortunately not found. But hell with it, a war is not over until I struggles to it. So yea, go figure.
As usual, im having problems in constructing my words so there goes my Whats-Happening?!.
1. This thing called money seriously have some issues with me. I don't know why but they keep on avoiding me.
2. Long hair, short, medium, curl. Nope, Long hair it is.
3. All those people who used to claim that I have a cold-heart really deserves a slap in the face. In some instances, I do love relationship. Hell yeah relationshit is hard but thats just the way it supposed to be right?
4. I think im having PMS soon and i need to have a comfortable distance from everybody..people, just stay 5 feet away from me.
5. I love my dad more than anything in this world.
6.Why do some wives sometimes cheat?
7. I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. PLEASE HURRY HOME.
8. Im considering a part-time job its just that i don't have car to move. Sometimes i wonder why I loss my car and don't get any dollars from it?
9. My lappy went kaput again. This is disaster-shit.
10. I don't think Ive change, I guess i just found the real me?
11. Enough ka if I just list down 10 updates..(someway somehow im stil typing).
12. Well, its morning now, this post was actually on PAUSE for 6hours.
13. I guess i have to learn how to save from now on because I noticed I don't possess anything in my life. Yet.
14. I smoked. Again. It's a sin, and Im not proud of it.
15. I missed my bestfriend Nurul. I can't wait for December.
16. You make me love you..:-)
Enough is enough. So that was all. I don't wanna mentioned anything about school because it stresses me out. I am uber tired. I need a vacay somehwere la wth..
P/s: I think this post is totally NOT gonna make myself look better. Told you I'm on PMS.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Yiruma - Kiss The Rain
Maybe its because of
BUT..
All I wanna say is..I miss u tooooo muchhh..
More than words can say..
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Spaces..Me-time..Privacy..and all that matters..
Do u know how much space u need in a relationship? The answer will depend more on what type of relationship u are in. There are types of relationship dat works best when they are both doing things together and there are also relationship dat work when both parties have their own space. The difficult part here is dat both of u must compromise. It is sometimes difficult to meet in between when both of u have different thoughts about ur time together and some space. But if both of u can meet halfway and both parties are happy with it then the challenge would be easier to tackle.
Some people dun like to be alone. They r much happier spending all their time with hommies, family and their partner. When they’re alone and doing things on their own they feel a little lost and lonely. While others love to be sociable, there are others who love solitude. They are just happy to do things alone without the feeling of doing things for others which makes them exhausted easily at times. Those two examples were rather extreme in some levels but majority of the people lie in the middle. They want time together and they also want to have a little space in the relationship once in a while. So if both of u have met on the same ground, th easier it will be to be able to define where the spaces will be in the relationship. If however both of u are extreme and luckily on the same extreme side, then it will also be easier since both of u will certainly agree on the terms of space u both want.
When u want to have a space in ur relationship and ur partner does not like being alone for some time then this may be a problem to u and ur relationship with ur partner. Both of u must discuss the ways on which both of u will agree on the space dat is needed for ur relationship. It is important to know and understand what the reasons are to be able to come up with a compromise that both of u can be happy about. When both sides of the relationship are not open in communicating often, the space in between them can be a problem and also difficult to handle without both parties coming up with an agreement. If you are the solidarity type of person and your partner is the opposite, your partner may feel not loved due to your insistence of wanting to be alone.
And if u hate being alone and ur partner really wants some me-time, then by hanging around constantly u can start to make ur partner feel smothered. Ur partner might also think dat there’s no trust there, and u wont give him or her private time because ure afraid of what he or she might do when ure not around. Both the situations can really cause problems to ur relationship but all u have to do is initiate in opening up ur thoughts to them. Express what u want and let them express theirs too. It is important that both of u can understand each others feelings. And when he or she hangs around when you’d rather be alone, you recognize dat he or she doesn’t need the same kind of space in a relationship dat u do.
P/s: RelationShip is hard.
Some people dun like to be alone. They r much happier spending all their time with hommies, family and their partner. When they’re alone and doing things on their own they feel a little lost and lonely. While others love to be sociable, there are others who love solitude. They are just happy to do things alone without the feeling of doing things for others which makes them exhausted easily at times. Those two examples were rather extreme in some levels but majority of the people lie in the middle. They want time together and they also want to have a little space in the relationship once in a while. So if both of u have met on the same ground, th easier it will be to be able to define where the spaces will be in the relationship. If however both of u are extreme and luckily on the same extreme side, then it will also be easier since both of u will certainly agree on the terms of space u both want.
When u want to have a space in ur relationship and ur partner does not like being alone for some time then this may be a problem to u and ur relationship with ur partner. Both of u must discuss the ways on which both of u will agree on the space dat is needed for ur relationship. It is important to know and understand what the reasons are to be able to come up with a compromise that both of u can be happy about. When both sides of the relationship are not open in communicating often, the space in between them can be a problem and also difficult to handle without both parties coming up with an agreement. If you are the solidarity type of person and your partner is the opposite, your partner may feel not loved due to your insistence of wanting to be alone.
And if u hate being alone and ur partner really wants some me-time, then by hanging around constantly u can start to make ur partner feel smothered. Ur partner might also think dat there’s no trust there, and u wont give him or her private time because ure afraid of what he or she might do when ure not around. Both the situations can really cause problems to ur relationship but all u have to do is initiate in opening up ur thoughts to them. Express what u want and let them express theirs too. It is important that both of u can understand each others feelings. And when he or she hangs around when you’d rather be alone, you recognize dat he or she doesn’t need the same kind of space in a relationship dat u do.
P/s: RelationShip is hard.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
One last Breath
So....
It has been like...ermm... one-hell-of-a-nicotine-free-week for me..And I feel bloody heavier than before..
Some of u will not know but i decided to quit smoking..yea..finally quitting smoking for good..There is no specific reasons why..I just got this sudden wake up call n realize that i wanna live longer..Even though i know that death lies in God's hand but then at least i get rid of one of the reason of getting one step closer to...u-know-what..
*i feel like i'm using too much 'of' in my last sentences.
I tell you what..I feel horrible..Being in a circle of friends where most of them are heavy-smokers..i gotta admit sometimes i do feel tempted..Every time when their smokes are passing thru me, i feel like taking a puff..my mouth starting to get so watery and the next thing i know..the temptation is getting out of hand..If I was to explained how I really want to smoke so bad that time, its like..erm..craving for ur favorite food..Its so addictive..Its like porn, but much better.
*my last line was a metaphor.
But even so, i'm glad because I get to hold those shitty temptation and finally forget about it..I'm trying my best here because I just can't take sickness anymore..I fell sick almost 6 times in the past 6 months, isn't that bullshit? As bad as i wanted to smoke again, I keep on reminding myself about my sickness..And most importantly, if i'm back to my smoking habit again, i doubt myself in quitting smoking someday in the future..I'm worried that I never felt the intention to stop anymore..True that.
" Dear Lord, i know i bailed out our date every Sunday and I admit that i only come to you when i really2 need you, or when 'im in trouble..but this time, i need Your help, I need extra inner strength to fight those Russian spy..You know, like in the moofie Salt?No ba, I need strength to forbid myself from smoking again. I promise i go and visits You more often during Sunday..Tell you the truth, It really matters to me as it really matters to You. Because, i believe in You. Amen."
So here it goes, bring it on...I'm saving my One Last Breath...~
Random: I gave all my lighters to my friends just so that I forget that i was once a heavy-smoker. Its so hard ok, believe me..it sucks when u trying to reach ur phone in ur handbag and all u get to touched were..lighters. FYI, I got 7 lighters in my handbag. What say you?
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I gave away the Purple lighter to Yuq, it is the most precious lighter of mine because it has my favorite color..and the rest went home with Chester.
* Sigh*
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
My sleepless night and my 3.23 am entry.
Current song: Katherine Mcphee- Terrified.
Waddup peoples, I am still in sick mode..but the gewd news is..those Ventolin 4mg finally smoothen my breathing..I cough less now..just a bit flu and minor fever..
I went to the moofie today with Afiq and Vitalis..yada yada..I just can't stand staying indoors..We watched the Sorcerer's Apprentice which is superbly nice..*thumbs up*..
Do you really believes in magic????As for me, I can't help but to wonder about it. But personally, i think it still God who makes everything works, no?
I try to imagine how life could be if people can simply uses magic against each other, uses magic to solve problems, depending on magic to continue living..wooot~Somewhere along the line, i do wish I have those magic just so that i can stop worrying about every inch of my problems, how i wish those money just flow every time i open the pipe..in your dream vale..in your dream..
Current song: Jason Derulo- Fallen
But hey, if magic really does exist, I think people will just stop believing in themselves and they wouldn't know how to appreciate life..Reality check is, theres no short-cuts in happiness..And that all the problems ure facing will make u a stronger person in the future..*cheers to life experiences*..
I can't really say that I am living a good life right now, im still living in a mess, still struggling with problems and issues, still battling with few confrontations..But..Im just glad that im surrounded with beautiful and incredible peoples all around me..Those people who makes me smile even when I feel like im at my wits end..of course i never really share about my problems with peoples, but just when i pull out the chair and sit with them..All those shits just swept away..Those peoples are my friends.
Current song: One Republic- Secret.
Sometimes, I just don't care about myself and let my friends have their moments. People said its not a good thing to put others beyond my own as a priority..But the truth is, seeing all those peoples I love and care about happy, IS my happiness.
Some random reality check:
"Money can't buy you love, but you need money when your loved ones are sick." - Saw this in my friend's status and I just go.."yaaaakannnn?"
Its really late and i need to take my meds.
Till next time~
Friday, July 23, 2010
Gasping.
I am currently suffering from chest-pain, short-breathing and bad hard cough. If this isn't clear enough..it calls asthma attack.
dammit, i shud have known it is coming this morning when i feel uncomfy-ness in my chest..but que sera sera..so kadau-tuluh i am still sucking on nicotine..and now..i feel like my lungs bleed everytime I started to cough. Enough said.
I haven't been visiting my blog much these days..and since i'm too weak due to 4mg of Ventolin n Ventolin syrup..My hands are now shaky and because of that..im in no mood of sentencing a proper sentences...
1. Just as I expected, im running out of money, Again. But still, i always believes that money comes and go..so just let it flow..
2. I need to handle two projects for this semester, Our Sales Carnival and BBA Marketing Family Day in Tenom...
3.What is Managerial Economy?
4.I love my new fren Yuq.
5.Chester is like a brother and greatest guy friend to me. I love him too.
6. I like having Emma around because she can be a big sister and a little sister to me..all at the same time. How unique is that?And yes, of course I love her.
7. Rosha is very fun to be with because of her open-minded and understanding personality...She's cool!
8. I love to be friend with Daniel because of her protective sense and...hell yeah, he's a funny creature.
9.I like to hangout with Anyoi because we pretty much got the same interest and i like to bully him.hah!
10. Muhid is a really really really good fren. Full stop.
Last but not least, some random thoughts.
" The reason why men cheats is because there are so many women out there willing to cheat with." - Act like a lady, Think like a man. Still my very favorite book. *wlpn blum habis baca*
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
mutuality.
So, i was blog surfing and coincidently read these 2 blog posts that somewhat sends the same messages. Blogger's identity not included..hehe..
Mana la tau got some feminists want to antam them...ohohoho..
These bloggers do have some good point actually. AND should be read by us girls. As for early warning, memang will feel a bit geram( i still dunno how to explain GERAM in english) also la with the guys. Thats why I think we should read on..u know what i mean? Because i strongly thinks it can be applied to both genders...Female and male..
- Gentlemen A post.
There will come a time in a man's life when we need to be serious in a relationship. But that does not mean you need to submit to the ways of a dominants and controlling woman, and have your tail caught between your legs.
If going for a beer, or some trivial excursion requires her permission, You're on a short leash. Your bossy girlfriends thinks that this is a NO-NO. Suddenly, you just cant pop into a club for quick booze at the end of the day without facing loads of rubbish questions and harassment. That makes you stop doing it. Don't give in to her and let her control you.
Sharing e-mail account and passwords is insane! I used to inadvertently share my password with my ex- girlfriend that was a major mistakes because you suffer a lot of independence. I changed my password, she asked, and I asked her to fuck off and give me my privacy. I subsequently dumped her.
It's a definite sign that you're on a leash when you get some piece of news(good or bad) and your thoughts immediately turns to how she will responds once she hears it. Thoughts start running through your head and you brace yourself for her dramatic accusation and moaning. Get her a dog for Christmas and let her channel her drama towards it.
You used to get calls and texts from friends wondering about your plans. Now, its no longer the case, everyones stop contacting you, assuming that you're keep under lock and key all weekend, and they finally givin up on you. Bullshit to that. Just keep this going. They're your friends and if your woman thinks that your intention is to bang all female friends you come in contact with, dump your girlfriend. She got issues.
My saying:
You don't have to ask her permission to live your life. TELL her but don't ask her permission. Always defend your rights and dignity from the start. Talk things over, make some deals and the most importantly, give and take. If she continue, break up with her or your life will be ruined.
- Gentlemen B post.
If your whole life revolves around your significant other, you have to rethink your priorities. If a guy/girl comes into your life and turns it around, what does that say about your life? Does that mean it was empty and meaningless before she came into your life? If your answer is yes, there might be something wrong with you.
I had a friend who asked his girlfriends to run away from home. He said he'll take care of her and pay for her college tuition fees. All this when he's only 21 years old. Man, he couldn't even keep a steady job for a month! Fortunately, the girl wasn't stupid enough to believe him and she broke up with him a month later.
Or another one where he used to say ''I will love you forever'' and go totally broke buying stuffs for his girlfriends. All with his parents money!
Or the one who said ''My life is meaningless'' after his girlfriends left him. The he found another one and said the same thing. Get a fucking clue.
Anyways, my point is, if you can't take care of yourself, how can you take care of somebody else?
A girl ain't gonna fix your problems and sure she ain't gonna rely on you for security if you;re not independent( emotionally or financially). Somewhere along the line, a whole generations of guys have lost their balls and turned into so called " sensitive new age guys". I have the right to call them that because I used to be one.
Its true. I used to be needy, jealous, self- sympathizing, emotional black-hole of a person. Some of my ex- girlfriend can relate to that, and boy did I gave them shit. I'm so sorry about that and you girls would be so proud that I grew out of that teenage angst. I'm definitely in a happier place right now.
In fact, I am more selfish these days. Apparently, girls like a little backbone in their man!
What I learned over the years is that, you have to fix your own problems first, thinks about your future and focus on what make you happy. The center of your life is you, not your religion, not your jobs, not your computer games, not your possessions and certainly not your significant other. Hard to accept, but it's true. None of these things will fix you if you don't want to fix yourself.
Which bring me to the lesson no 2 of the manifesto.
2. The center of universe is yourself.
*** THE END***
HMMMM..INDEED!
All ladies out there should do the SAME..
that's what I think..
NOBODY owns NOBODY..
..sPREAD YOUR WINGS AND FLY..
..specially dedicated to all the ladies and friends who are going through that caged feelings.
You have a choice.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
None of this chick can fuck with my baby.
First of all, lemme apologies for the explicit title above. It seriously not something that i wanted to write about and it totally doesn't make sense at all...Its just a line from the song Already Taken by treyz song..Keeps repeating it in my humming..blarh!
I know I haven't been updating a lot these days..but i have certainly have sooooooo much to say and how I wish i could say everything that has been on my mind lately..I wish I could just speak freely but I know being a person from KK, it doesn't permit me much to just speak freely without being thought ''oh she's this and she's that...I know i shouldn't care and all but I just don't think its necessary.
You get my drift right.
So, anyways I have my reasons. And no, the last post is just something a friend listed out. She is such a metaphor. Is that spelling right?
I love y'all for just being who you are..^____________^"
I am okay, love.
till then!aaahh..muTan_xALL3N..was this close to know sepa ko..!kindets.. goddammit!
I.am.nearly.asleep.
I.am.listening.to.CUT.by.PLUMP.
Its.rising.and.shining.
I.am.not.EMO.
Dammit..I seriously love mUSIC, even though im not so good in in whatever bidang..but still man..thanx HIM for mUSICS!!hahaha.
Have a great days ahead and peace!...love!...unity!...
Do i sense some money comin from ya?heehe...x ba..
xoxo.
p/s: Mcm lama x post up gmbar here kan????hmm.nte la on my next post...BOOYAH!
Monday, June 7, 2010
Care-free and Worry less.
I was supposed to write about my day today but i got hooked by Rod Stewart. So i guess i see u guys in my next post. *straight face*
Monday, April 26, 2010
Womens favorite phrases.
#1. Fine
This is the word women used to end an argument when they are right
and you need to shut up.
#2. Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
#3. Nothing.
This is the calm before the storm. This means something and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begins with #3. Nothing usually end with #1. Fine.
#4. Go Ahead.
This is a dare, NOT a permission. DON'T do it again. DO NOT do it!
#5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word. But it is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks that you are an idiot and wonder why she wasting her time standing here and arguing with you which lead to #3. Nothing.
#6. That's Okay.
This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. It means she wants to think long and hard before deciding on how and when you will pay for your mistake.
#7. Thanks
If a woman is thanking you, do not questioned, or faint. Just say you're welcome. Unless she says "thanks a lot" - which is a pure sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say you're welcome. That will ring on #8. Whatever.
#8. Whatever
Is a woman's way on saying FUCK YOU.
#9. Don't worry about it, I got it.
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman already told a man to do for several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking what's wrong?For the woman to respond #3. Nothing.
Now girls, tell me which part of it is true..??*wink*
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
We all wanna be different (which makes us all the same)
"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to messed up sometimes, It's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to messed it up. Girls will be your friends-they act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The one that stays with you through everything- they're your true best-friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends ever in the world. As for lovers, well they come they go as well. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them, pretty much all of them are going to break your heart. But you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mates. You'll never find the half that makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always always always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's much to smile about."
- "This is me, Marilyn Monroe, the iconic legend speaking."
"We're teenagers. We're still learning. Shits happen. We cheat. We lie. We criticize. We fight over stupid things. We bitch, bitch, BITCH. We BITCH about BITCHES being BITCHY. We party till dawn, we drink till we pass out. We hate people for no reason, we call each other names. We stay up late having deep conversations, OR stay up late just to THINK-THINGS over. We go out and have a kick ass time with our friends and THOSE WILL ALL BE MEMORIES. One day, that's all going to pass. You can waste your time focusing on all the bad things, but one day....ONE DAY, you gonna wish you were still a TEENAGER. So make the most of what you have now, forget all the bullshits and drama and live like your dying."
- "This is me, Vale, the rock star speaking."
p/s: I love Marilyn Monroe. Too bad she died.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Its not always about YOU.
And i know,
I may end up FAILING too,
But I know,
You were just LIKE me,
with someone DISSAPOINTED in you.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Feelin kinda mellow.
FYI, I slept at 5pm just now and i just wake up.*look at the time*
I was bloody awake 3nights in a row. Reason? Lots of leisure, lovey dovey stuffs, responsibilities, chillaxing and of course assignments and stuff that never really like to see us happy, even only in a glimpse of a blinking eye...hahahaha..wats with the vocab la...?screw me.
What im intended to say is..I am actually living a hectic life. I don't even notice that it is already in the month of April. So fucking fast if u asked me. And yet, I haven't seen anything productive in myself. Just dramas and it is oh-so-not-awesome im tellin ya..
Oh, I also realised that everywhere around me, there's either people hooking up or being ditched... EVERYWHERE! It's that season again..some were for the best and some was just oh too pityful. For some, I can't help but to feel sorry for the victims coz everyone knew what was coming except for them. They had their faith or so.. they believed just like me, but the thing about me is, I will always put my feet down and make sure that I do, as long as I can or for as long as I could remember but if I sway away, then I sway away. That's when the saying comes in, it happens then shit happens. Then here comes the everything happen for a reason..
There will always be a fucking reason to justify everything... as long as u know how to twist your words and make you look good, you're game. Go ahead, live, live and live.. go on living. Feel every feeling..happy, sad, anger, joy, tears, hurt, insert every words listed in the oxford dictionary that describes emotions, feel it because you are born human. If you can't decide or accept things around you, simple.. YOU ARE FUCKED UP AND A NUTTER. Waheyy.. confetti~ confetti~
Living a worry free life is simple : Live, Discover, Feel, Learn and stay away from draggy debts. Don't move in with your gf/bf. In any case of insecurities in a relationship.. fuck it and let it stay as a 'I'm seeing her/him...' instead of stating it STEADY. It's not steady when you have to snoop around and shit like that. Do they even know what STEADY means? yes i know that steady is used universally for describing a very committed relationship, but I just think that some people could really go to some pathetic extent and actually give it as a reason that it is LOVE. Damn bodoh if you ask me.. I admit that I had relationships in the past that I, now, think that what I did before or whatever was super stupid and WTFWTF to me. That's why for now, my relationship is considered VERY different from the types that I had before. A round of applause to lifes experiences...cheers. Am thinking WHYYYY the hell some people would go over it oooover and oooover again..don't they get bored of the same old boat?
Ok la, enough said, i get sleepy again. Im off to sleep now.
P/s: I wonder wat its like to use the color red. erm..big no-no.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Still alive and kickin'.
So yea..i am still in my 'burning-fag' mode. Kinda living a hectic life these days makes me stand so close to cigarettes and alcohols. ...ahhhhhhhh..
What's the odd...im still alive anyway....
I'm a rockstar..:)
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