Dont mess with my family u ass.

Last night, when i was about to go to sleep, i heard a hard and loud knocks on my door..Reluctantly..i checked and theres mum..asking me to get ready..it takes me minutes to figure out what she said..it happen to be that my Uncle has been brutally beaten by several chinese road bullies..

As i arrived, my uncle was totally exhausted, blood was all over his face..its kinda look like an awful injury..At that moment, me with my anger inside my heart..continuously cursing those whoever beaten him. To start with, he was on his way home..Frankly, he was driving Faye's lowered Satria and of course its kinda slow to passed the bonggols. And wtf is that, the chineses boys cant stand the slow motion of my uncles car and decided to cucuk and honk him from the back..mai lin oo??cant u just brought ur heavy cocks and over-tacked?fuck ass damn chinese man!

Feelin annoyed, my uncles stop by the roadside and get out from the car to asked what is the chineses problems actually, and without warning, one of the chinese dick face took a hard metal and beat my uncle and after finised, they ran away..what the fuck is that?trying to hit a way an adult..why dont he just go one by one without any weapon..that will sound more like a hero..kimak la!

After taking some information from my uncle, me and my cuzzy Pearl went to the security centre to check the entrance cctv. Apparantly, the guys drove a Kelisa SAA7010C just at the back of my uncles car. After we detect the car, we sent 2 security to see where did they parked and their house number and soon after that, we called the police.The police is another story..

After last night's incident, i finally understand why do people hate cops so much..that is because most of the cops are irresponsible..so this is how it goes between my conversation with the asshole cops pukima anjing sial anak ko isap butu babi!

"Sepa yang kena pukul"-Fucked up cops.
"uncle sya"-lovely me.
"sepa yang pukul?"-Fucked up cops.
"erm..ada budak2 cina td p pukul dia.sbb dia lmbat bawa keta ja..then dorg x sabar..dorg p pukul uncle sy pula pkai besi..pas tu dorg chow."-lovely me.
"di mana mangsa skg?"-fucked up cops.
"ada d rumah."-lovely me.
"terukkah?napa x bawa p hospital?''-fucked up cops.
"alaa..nda tau klu dia dpt jalan ka nda..sbb dia lemah tul skg tu..nda jua teruk berabis la..tp totally lemah..bedarah2 td banyak."-pissed me but still maintain lovely.
"ba..klu dia nda buli jalan, kamu angkat la?!"fucked up cops.
"uih..UNCLE SAYA, BADAN DIA DUA KALI GANDA LAGI BESAR DARI BADAN TUAN."-pissed me and dont care if i look totally crap.
"oo..jadi badan sy keci la ne?"*laughing*-fucked up cops getting ready to get fuck by stray dogs.
"uina..keci pula ne.."my cuzzy Pearl.
"nda buli ka kmu p tgk sana kejap?''-pissed me trying to have a slow talk.
"buli tu buli..tp klu kmi p sana..APA JUGA YANG KAMI BLEH BUAT?"-Fucked up cops enjoying getting a BJ by his son.

owh my god..what the fuck..u asking us what u shud do?wheres ur brain man?Okay..i understand if it takes some procedure to log a police report..but that is not an excuse of not taking ur responsibility. U are the cops, u know better. At least just take a look at my uncle's condition and make a simple report or take some information, as well as calling the headoffice so that they aware of it.Thats all!

Damn..i am so damn pissed with the cops..so was Pearl..both of us are really surprised with their response. Even the security guard is much better.

So, my aunty bring my uncle to the hospital and then went to the police station to log a report. Found out that the guy's car has been detected by the JPJ and they will do some tangkapan in no time.Good!

All my family are so shocked to hear about this because all of us never thought that my uncle will got beaten. And let me remind u that my family will not be quiet until justice is done. Dont mess with my family because if u hurt one of us, u are messing with all of us. What u have done, u gonna pay for it!u got that! And to the bastard police named Lokhman..u are so dead. My aunty has make a complain about you and i hope u enjoy ur dog's dick in ur mouth.Ok!

Disclaimer: i dont care if im getting jail for trashing the cops. Cops are bastard anyway..Well some of them..whatever it is..the cops last night..was a total asshole.

Gravity.

Did i gAze around your thoughts sumtimes?
Because i can feel it..
or maybe im just having sort of wishful thinking..
Why do it feels like you?
the further i go..the closer ur precense feels like..
Something always brings me back to you...
Kill me now, Please.

RANDOM and nothing is right.

I was browsing thru my 'kodak moments' just now..Cant believe i have taken a lots of pictures and each of them leaves memories actually...*deep sigh* 3 papers down..2 more papers to go..I just finished my Macro paper today and all i can say is..'Hopefully'..The question is easy but my brain refuse to storm..

Cant really write down my thoughts at the moment bcoz seems like all my ideas likely to be scattered around and i just dunno where to begin..Feelin kinda tired of thinking but i know i cant stop myself from thinking actually..im such a paranoia..

Well..yada yada..

Really lazy to blog. Just thought of passing by..at least i never forget..

Till then..
remember..always..

i LOVE and i LOST

"This is a lesson for you like it was for me, and it's not just the fact that you lost the one you really2 love with all your heart, it's the fact of starting over in a sense..like pickin up the pieces and knowing who cares around you and then when someone goes through the same shit like you did, you will be like me, to help and to share and understand because that's what they need most.."someone told me this.

True.

Perhaps this is gonna be the ending of my complicated love life. All these while, ive been dealing with all sorts of dramas and merry-go-rounds..I think eventually im the one who need to bring myself up..The one who need to quit being patient..the one who need to quit of all sickening hopes in me..Im not sure if this is what i really want..or if i can really make myself deal with it..I dont know.

Am i afraid?You can say so..Perhaps im just afraid of losing him forever..should i? I cant keep pretending that he is gonna love me or pretending that everything still remain the same between us when its obvious that im no longer the girls who used to have a place in his heart.

I came to a point where i feels like questioning the past..where i began to feel like its not my fault for making a mistakes..Thers always a reason why certain things occur and i dont think im the one who breaks it..Perhaps this is what i am..disposable.

I feel so sad. So sad to accept that im alone. Theres nobody to find comforts for...Loner..thats my middle name for now..How i wish i can jsut dispose u from my heart in just a prick of finger..How i wish..

Dont come and judge me when i say i wanna forget you. I hope i can knock some senses in you, just to make u understand how it feels like to be in my shoes..U walk away, u came back and u leave..again.

I remember the day u came back..and i was the one who always stand by you..Move along with your so-called new life..so-called new principal..so-called new perception..I was the one who listen to everything in you..who adore you..who be there for you..

In the end..whose gonna save my ass?I love and i lost.

PMS?

I think im having a PMS symptoms..u know...that things that usually hit us all women and all of a sudden we get so fuckin sensitive out of nowhere and no reason at all??
errrghh.thats exactly how i fet..im feelin so moody since this morning..everything seems t be so not right..buhhh..whatever la kan..but i think im just annoyed myself ne ba...errggghhhh!!~

So, wat am i gotta do now?Im bored like hell lg ne..Just finish my 2nd paper..Plannin on borrowing some dvd from a friend but seems like he feels uneasy about me goin to his house..Buhhhh..not like im gonna stay longer juga ba..jan la ba risau..ish...u see?im mad again!palui ehhh...Cibaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~

ui...whatever la...afterall..lifes always been about Yin and Yang..ups and down..black or white..perhaps im jsut goin thru a bad day..

btw..i miss someone but i dint think he miss me.*dissapointed way*

Better get my mind calm before theres more explicit words comes out..
till then..wish u all a great day~

Its raining now..Hallelluyah!!~

Did I ever mention that I love the rains so much?

Ready, get set, Go!~

argghhhhhhh.....

*deep breath*

Okay..im goin to make dis short and simple..

Its my fault. And im having problems confessing it. But not anymore. Im sorry, i shouldnt have reacted the way i act last night. Please forgive me.

Seee, i can be a nice gurl too sumtimes.

Disclaimer: I really do regret wat i did. and i know nothing can take back the words i said. Believe me, i dun really mean it, im just saying it because im angry. Im ready to be grounded.

My words,my thought,my body and my soul.

Due to some unexplainable and personal reasons, i deleted my previous post.

Somehow somewhere along the line I lost the urge to use my words the way I always do. I cant speak them and more importantly I can't write them down. The inspiration has always been there but whenever I hold a pen or sit here with my fingers touching the keys I cant seem to start and not stop until Im done. Even now Im having so much difficulty writing a whole sentence. Thats also the reason why I deleted my last post. The truth is there wasnt one. I just couldnt do it.

I always find a way to fix anything "broken", in me or in someone else. There was always a solution, another perspective not previously thought of that I caught on and build upon but this time I just dont see it. I just dont know what is the solution to this. If I dont find one soon i'll probably flunk out of Uni and end up with nothing again.

The words just dont mean anything to me anymore. Even words that arent personal.

A good heart is what I have he said.What use is a good heart if it feel nothing but negative feelings?

Hot!Hot!

Happpy Saturday people...

To start with...yea..he wakes me up today and i was quite surprised..Well..its been so long since he last did that to me..kinda reminds me of the way we used to be before..u know..waking uo with his voice saying the greatest good morning everrrr~~~Hush vale..u overdoing it..*grin*..

It was bloody hot outside and my entire room feels like a favaourable sauna that i am completely wet rite now..Nope..not wet..i am sweating to be precise..hehe..I think its because of the global warming the earth is facing right now and i am totally not happy about it...

Arggg...i want aircond in my room...duhhh...why the sudden im being so selfish??

gotta go people..drink lotsa water okay..and yeap..do apply osme sunscreen onto ur skin if ur planning to go out aite...i told ya..it friggin hot!

Till then..
mmush mmush my Saturday Hero..

Now or never

Today s my last class with my classmates. Final exam is just around the neighbourhood and after that will be eternal farewell...argghh...hate is..once again..all the people that i cherish just gotta leave...

Well..its nobody's faults actually..people have their life and so was mine..im just frustrated that im the one who leave behind..

As for now, i only have my friends that can really cheer me up..I dont know how its gonna be like when everybody started pursuing in degree..will i ever meet them..will there be any practical jokes we use to have in class?..Damn..Why do all good things come to an end?

I guess i just have to face it like a real adult as im entering it in no time. For sure we will meet again but at that moment..changes...is all i will see...

I better start studying now.

hmm..after watching One in a million.hehe..

Sorry..no mood to be serious.

Bubbye.

Move along.

Well..im just bored okay..and feeling a bit lonely n yada yada yada..

Went to watched Fast and Furious 4 today and it was superb. I like the way Dom raise up his head in a 45degree after winning the god damn furious race..whoa..and owh yup..also the part when he said the type of girl he like must be 20% angel and 80% devil..That doesnt sound a bit like me eyh?

Crap.

Nothing much to write right now. Yes ive been thru some shits and life sounded more like hell these days but it didnt contribute to even a tiny spot of progress if i keep whining about it again and again right..i mean, that is what life supposed to be..there are events of ups and down occured and there also a so-called happiness and sorrow..

Of all the hardships that ive been thru for almost two years now, can say that ive changed a lot, may it be internally or externally..myself are 100% affected. Im getting matured in making my perception, whereby my point of view always take place before an impulse of reaction reach to my brain. But most of all, my whole life has changed..family, friendship, relationship, financial, study,future..Everything is not under control and im still trying to fit in and pulling back the gravity..There are times when i feel completely lost and really wanna giving up life..*if u know wat i mean..*, but, there are still part of me says hold on to it..and im still here..Even without any mutual person that can really stand beside me and tell me that everything is gonna be alright..im still here..

Ive been hearing people's problems every single day. People come to me for opinions, for solutions, and even comforts. And thats when im doing my part..i keep telling people what they wanna hear..i keep telling people what they should and should not do, and i keep telling people that they gonna be okay.There, i just dont think they realize that they are actually seeking advices from a depressed person. I think this is somehow an ironic events and related to the terms everything happens for a reason. Im facing lotsa problems and with it, i can simply help people to go thru shits as im facing it before..does it make sense?

Shit.
Its funny when i can handle other people problems and cant really handle mine?

So, thats that. Life keep on moving on and i need to do the same..Eventhough sumtimes i feel like pressing the 'self-destruction' button..but i just dont wanna let my life end that way..I just dont wanna go thru another regrets ive done before..Enough is enough..God has its way on showing us happiness and i hold on to that.

So, from nothing for a pretty long rant huh..this is not a post specifically pointing to anybody..just my thoughts that craft based on my experience in life...and the list goes on..

Till then..
move along.

So-called democracy.

Democracy?Its a fiction. It never really happen especially in my Uni.

Where do all the student's rights when we really need it? Where do justice when we students are really depending on it?

System= Anda telah disabitkan atas kesalah tidak menghadiri kuliah tanpa kebenaran pensyarah sebanyak kali dan sebagai hukuman, anda perlu membayar denda sebanyak rm60.

whattttttt theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk???

Okay..

Im Valerie Anthia Joseph, admitted for performing three times absence without any diclose of informatiin from my lecturer but........

why do i have to pay for a total rm60?
If there also a fine, why does it cost so expensive?
Why do a first-timer like me cant be given any consideration?(eg: Warning)
and oh yup...can i get rm20 per day for attending class everyday because u bastard authority are doing it vice versa????!!!!

Im not questioning the power of top-level management. Im just feel that the punishment is somehow way too heavy for students. Student have their own reason for absence in fact students are normal human too..there are things called overslept, personal and fmaily problems occur in our life!

I have no other words..*shaking my heads*

Peace.Out.

Randomnessssss~

Really lazy to blogg..hoho...

I dont know much.

First of all , let me appologize on behalf of this entry's title. Its nothing related with it, just some song's line that stuck in my head..

"i dont know much, but i know i love u"...*humming*..it sounds a lit bit like that..

Today is a typical Thursday..Nothing much has happened except for the unexpected date...or shud i say the unexpected text first?

Ignore my stupidity..

The point is, im happy to see you. To spend time with you even for a short period. Thanx for putting a smile on me and thank you for the presence of YOU. I hope you feel the same way too.

I know theres so much goin on right now. I can see it in your eyes. The way u start to gaze your eyes around when u were chewing on your meals. The way u look at me when you suck on your straw. It all lays there..on those beautiful eyes of yours. So much preassure graffiti on your forehead and your smile are so meaningful that it represent happiness and sorrow.

Its time for a change. I know you can go throught it..And i know i can go through it.

Be strong now.

Be strong now..

Some search never finding a way
Before long they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade

Cause im lonely..

And im tired..

Im missing u again..

Once again..

After midnight

............................................whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.................................

........................................feels like........................................

........................................YOU......................................

I dont know.

[?]

Have lots of issues in mind but i cant really state it here..no explanation for that i just dont wanna talk about it over and over again.

What are you now Vale?

Loser?

Failure?

Okayyyyyyy..

Go now! Go!

Go cry like a baby!

Go!

I hate myself lately.

Reality bites?

For sure.