*sigh*

this feeling keep on and off..I just dunno how to describe how i feel right now..Keep telling myself to let it go, but it never been easier..

i feel like everyday is a challenge for me..to forget somebody u used to love is not easy..there will never be a best word to describe this feeling, only i knew..

Just needed to keep myself busy..to avoid myself from thingking too much..

I lay on my bed and close my eyes..i open my eyes again and turn right..and then left again..on and on again..i wake up..and go to my parent's bedroom..both of them having a really great sleep..i touch my dad's head and kiss him on the forehead..

i look out the window, its full moon and it shines so bright..i go to the living room and hug my little cousin and my brother. .No explanation for my action..everything just happen spontaneously..

i feel like a different person lately..