Wake up call.

All of a sudden im having a wake up call..Well its not about any typical calling like " Oh i shud be a bulimic in order to be skinny" or " i need to get laid to fit in the trend nowdays.."..Whats been bothering me is.."How would i feel when im old?"

So, to start with this post, my aunt actually gave my mum a call this afternoon.Saying that my grandmother suddenly called her, crying, and telling her that she misses all of us a lot..

Need me to say more?i guess not.

I feel so friggin guilty as shit right now for knowing that. It must be hard to be in grandma shoes. Living with her husband and son theres not much attention givin to her. Theres no women-to-women talk goin on for her. Theres no happy laughter and jokes around...Damn..imagine what it feels like to live like that.

Im the type of girl who cant stand boredomness. Cant stand spending the whole day at home and cant stand loneliness. But when i heard about what grandma has gone thru..i feel so useless. I feel so pity to grandma for seldom go back there to visit her. I feel so sad that she had to go thru that.. To be honest with u. i just cant stand seeing people crying especially children and old-folks.

The thing is, we should really appreciate our grannys eventhough theres not much we can share with them. Im just saying that they are human being too. They need attention and love. especially in their range of age.. They tend to be a bit emotional and sensitives. For real i dont wanna go thru it when im old. I wanna be with my children and grandchildren.

As guilt as i feel, i decided to go back to visit grandma after class tomorrow.I promise.

Wipe ur tears Ma..Im going home.*smile*