How i wish..

I listen to my mum's wining again today..hmm..perhaps im not gonna say it as whining..its more like an emotional talk to be precise..

Its funny when we can handle other people's problem easily but when it comes to my mum..i goes tongue tied..I dont know how to console her..

I have no idea how to make her happy..Deep down inside me, how i wish i can push away all the burden u carry mum. How i wish i can wipe all the tears u shed when i accidently saw u crying in ur room..God knows how i felt to see u like that..Im sorry mum..Im sorry coz theres nothing i can do..im sorry for not able to lighten ur burden..i feel so useless because we are so close to each other yet theres nothing i can help..

I know its been hard for u since the day it happens to daddy..Feels like running away..running away to return with the best outcome..but how can i leave mum..Home is where my heart is..

The past few days, i was wondering what took you so long to change in ur bedroom..so,i opened the door a little and i saw u kneel down on ur knees and pray..Oh God...I turn my face away because i cant stand looking at your sadness mum..

mUM..i may not be the perfect daughter u always wanted me to be..But..i really love our family and theres so much effort i put thru it..Im going to achieve sumthing mum..Keep my words.