Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I have a really bad mood. sad and unwanted kind of feeling. pretty damaged situation and i think a long title is just makin me looked so fucked up.

So, ive been away for quite some time..I often have the urge to write but as usual..the thoughts just slips away the moment i started jotting down..isnt that weird?or normal? well just for the record..and i know its going to sound so awfully random..but here is some reason why i start blogging.

1. Feels like talking to a wall.
Im not the type of person who likes to be so open up about my problems by talking it to others. As for me, i prefer to just buried it deep inside my heart and just pretend like i am having a ball..not ball..i mean..having a real good time. But in certain circumstances, i really need to talk about it, or just desperately need someone to be an ear..to just listen. And at that moment, i have none. No one to talk to. And it comes to the 1st reason, i jotted down every inch of my feeling in this blogg, just to make myself better..Savvy?

2. Im a selfish bitch.
Why?because most of the time i only wanna hear things that i WANNA hear. I often disagree with opinions that seems not right for me and end up sticking up with my own judgement. here, in my blog, i can talk whatever i want freely. No feedbacks, no comments, n no disagreement.

3. Didn't i just love writing so much.
I love writing..its been part of my life. Writing is greater than a boyfriend..greater than anything..

Tukar topic.

I had someone confess that he loves me?i dunno what to say..I dont know how to react actually.. He seems like a nice-bad-guy..But i just don't think im ready for a relationship..Plus,, he has a girlfriend..what an odd right?

Dear life..i dunno what to think anymore..please please please give me a break...at least one good news.

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