called it PMS or mood swings..i still hate being lonely.

All my life, i never felt as lonely as i feel rite now..this feeling is just so painful especially when i started looking back..i always be there for those people i wish could do the same for me too..unfortunately when it is my time to reach them, they often put someone else above me as their priority..

I understand the fact that they have their own life but that surely don't explain why i can be there for them whenever and wherever they need me to be..but they cant be there for me..yes..even when i was the one who makes arrangement to see them first..they end up putting me way far behind their list..

Maybe im on my PMS or whatsoever..im just..ok..whatever la.

I think everybody will be more happy without me.