I kid you not

So..ive been staying indoors for a while because of my several sickness..let me see: sinus?[checked], allergy?[cheked], fever?[checked], mental condition?[superbly checked], emotion sickness?[silverchair's checked]..btw, i still have no idea am allergic to what..i've been scratching here and there yet don't even know the reason for all the red dots.. so mafan..

Anyhooo...

Life's gonna change from now on.. I've decided a few things. This time around, i should think more for myself because dats what people had been doing to survive in this world. I've learnt that if you do not make a stand for yourself and you let people step all over you and manipulate you just because of the fact that ur nice or at least trying to be one and for whatsoever reasons..it will get you no where and in the end you are to blamed. Why? Because people can just easily say dat they didn't force you at the 1st place.

*[I KID YOU NOT]

So, lesson learnt.. be careful of selfish and manipulative people.

In the end, no one will save ur ass except for yourself..

Thanks for everything.. this is an eye opener for me. Now i can see the true color of things around me. Trust no one but your own instincts..I knew it was coming but who knew that in the end, kena kasi biar seja with whatever dats left la..

And this is one of the reasons juga why i let go of some things that mattered to me just so others will live a happy life and not be bothered for their own conveniences.

Enough with that la..lets talk about Xmas..

Oh well, i dont feel like xmas-ing..Everybody seems to start counting their own countdown..it stressing me out..i wan to feel excited also baaa...i force myself to go for gift hunting for everybody pun i still not in the mood for Xmas..perrrfttt...Gontua sda ba kan..*sigh*

bt the way, i need something fresh..i need a fresh start..new challenges, new environment, new crowd, new circle of friends..erm..nope..just stick with my old circle of friends, new hobby, new interest, new lifestyle..erm..nope oso..i'll stick with my old life...*refer previous previous post, one of my resolution for 2010 is to get the 60% of the old me back*

funny..im not excited with Xmas but im excited for New Year...??erm...fresh start Vale, fresh start.